E S or R

Well on my first day off from back to school hell I practically have not been doing so well. I've been printing notes, assignments, organizing, and studying while alternating procrastination on the internet all freaking day. Mostly the studying and procrastinating breaks. But it's not even reviewing material I just learned. It's reading for next week and that wouldn't be a big deal if it wasn't so much. Unfortunately, it's like a couple chapters per class and these are 75 page chapters from a huge textbook. Like who has time for that? I haven't even finished and I still need to study abbreviations this weekend, plus do prelab assignments. How am I even supposed to do anything else regarding regular life? But the thing is I don't even want to do other things, much less studying. I just kinda get upset with where I'm at. All I really want to do eat constantly until I die, sleep endlessly, or run until I collapse. Eat Sleep or Run. Nothing sounds like much fun. The running doesn't even sound fun. It's just something to do to keep me busy until I run out of energy to support myself. What am I even doing? Nursing, really? Really? Making beds, brushing people's teeth, small talk? That's not me. I don't even get to solve the problem for the patient or tell them they need tests to maybe solve the problem. It's basically babysitting ill people. But this is what I've gotten myself into. I'm a junior in college. There's no turning back from this degree now unless I want to be in school until I'm practically 30. Upset? Maybe I'll just eat some more. It's late. Maybe I can sleep. Sleep causes another problem though. I'll make another post about that. Run? It's too late. I'll probably be too freaked out by every passing car to efficiently exhaust myself. I'm going to go write about my sleep problem now.