Lucky Duck

No, I don't think you understand. I am so flipping lucky it is blowing my mind. You don't meet people like this everyday. It was one of those rare opportunities. I live in Texas. He's up north. Somehow we meet through a penpal site. About a year and a half later we meet in person. He's kind and open. It's rare to find people so concerned about others' well being. He likes the things I do, yet we have a good amount of differences too. We click. We more than click. We're wonderful friends. We become more than wonderful friends. He thinks kisses are special and shouldn't be overused or misused. Our first one is while we slow dance alone in the rain on a stormy night. He also loves cuddling. Wow. Love isn't a feeling. It's a choice and we as friends made that choice. It wasn't until after his visit that I realized I had also fallen in love with him. The next visit I travel to him. It's wonderful. I really cannot explain how incredible of a person he is outside of any of the romantic stuff. He's ambitious, smart, funny, dreamy, caring, compassionate, open, trustworthy, loyal, talented, creative, a wonderful singer and guitarist, and very human. Communication is all we have most of the time. So in order to make things works we have to be honest, even if it means saying difficult things, and vulnerable. But that brings people closer together if they're willing and truly care about the other person. So we decide after that visit to become a thing. We don't like the label boyfriend-girlfriend thing. So we go without a name for it for awhile. He is probably the sweetest person I have ever met. If humans were sugar, this boy would have put me into a diabetic coma already. He is so romantic and it's like we very much get each other on the romantic wavelength too. To be honest, not one person has hit that with me until him. One day we decide we are both royalty so he is my prince and I am his princess. That's our label. Throw up all you want from the mush, but I love it. Cheesy pick up lines are hilarious and can be sweet. We laugh at the dumbest stuff and get to be entirely dorky with each other. We can be serious with each other and have deep conversations. We can be intellectual with each other. We can be loving with each other. We can have upsetting conversations with each other. We don't have to tell each other we love the other because we know it. I know it. I don't have to hear it. And when I do hear it, it means so much more than what I used to believe it meant. It makes me want to do nothing more than love him to the best of my ability. And I'm so glad it's with him. I am so lucky. So so so lucky. We may be far but he is worth every second we are apart. I don't know where this is going because we're so young. I have grown so much and so has he. I am beyond a lucky duck to get to experience this kind of relationship. Like I said, I wouldn't have wanted it with anyone else. He's magnificent.