Ugh Priorities

So in my last post I was talking about future children. Well...oh wait this looks like I'm about to announce I'm pregnant or something. HA. Nah man. There's nooooo way. Well the thing is I'm already prioritizing my future family above my future career. Which is all fine and dandy until you realize you don't even know what you want to do, and the thing you kinda want to do is completely unpredictable with that sort of thing. I'm having a difficult time with this. I'm freaking out. I want to give my family everything, but I would be so bored being a stay at home mom. My brain would waste away. But I don't know what my career aspirations are. Plus, I would preferably like to be 27-29 when I have kids, maybe up to 30 or 31, but I don't want to push things. I know you can't have a schedule for that sort of thing and sheesh I'm only 20, but this is really really important to me. Like when life seems rough and I really don't want to go onto the future, the only thing I can look forward to is having a family (which isn't even guaranteed). I'm still very very lost about what I want to do and it's driving me insane. It literally drove me insane two months ago, and I'm still so stressed about it. Writing about my problems never helps. It always makes it worse..great.