One of the worst things to go through would have to be losing a best friend. Honestly, it flat out sucks beyond belief. The so called "other friends" don't seem to matter when your best friend starts vanishing from your life. Because when you're upset and you want to talk to someone, who do you want to call? Your best friend. Need to rant about something stupid? Best friend. Want to get the hell out of your house? Best friend's house. Want to be stupid with someone and not worry about having to be judged? Best friend. Share amazing experiences that just wouldn't be the same without that person? Does it shock you the answer is still best friend?
Who do I go to now? There's a reason none of my other friends have filled the role of best friend in my life. They haven't made the cut or they haven't cared to try. A lot of self reflection likes to settle in the boring places now which isn't always enjoyable. It's lonely and I don't really feel like hanging out with anyone other than my best friend. When the day has ended, I want to tell my best friend about it. Now I have the blank wall that is the internet to stare at and talk to. Just like a crazy person. Awesome, right? Well this definitely can't be the most unhealthy way of doing it, but it's not much fun, nor does it fill that gap for intimate human interaction. It sucks.
I'll get over it.
Rant, rant, whine, whine, complain. Oh look at the time, I should really be studying.
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